Payoff

Today I still have been having this new constant strain and or pessimistic feeling holding me back. Ever since I was a kid I have wanted to own my own business, or the aspirations be someone important. These past couple years I have gotten glimpses of what this may look like, but haven’t yet pieced them together. I guess ultimately I seek to be financially stable so I can be in the position to properly support a future family. Now, I still seek this but want this goal to mirror God’s calling for me. What I have taken from this so far, is investing. I purchased my house a little over two years ago and now feel I need to be pursuing more.

A couple days ago I wrote my final check for my student loans. I never expected to have already been in the position to payoff my entire undergrad, and the post grad loans. Friday, I sold my car and had the ability to completely pay off that liability.

What this has told me is that the timing could not be better to take a risk. My good friend and realtor called me up the other day. A while back, I specifically told him that I currently wasn’t actively pursuing another real estate investment, but if he found something spectacular to let me know. Guess what, he found something. I have looked at many homes with him, and liked a few. Shoot I even put an offer in on one, but this one is the best yet. The scary part for me is that I know that if I want the place, it’s mine. My friend happens to be the listing agent, so the ball is totally in my court.

Now the pressure and reluctance continues to set in. I don’t get why I am timid about this decision. I just turned twenty eight years old, and am in the financial position to take a risk. For once I am a little scared. There is something truly humbling about seeing the true value loan estimate over thirty years on a mortgage. Now I may be trying two.